The clock strikes 11.30pm, in ntu, this is just starting of my night activities and the hall compound is like having nite parties, but now, in the BB house, I am alone in the living room typing this blog. I missed the hostel day in NTU.
The title, 'long forgotten freedom', it has been 8 months since we move in together to BB. Tonight, I am typing this happily and feeling secure, because I knew no one is beside peeping at me doing wat. I surf net as I like, google-ing things like never before, type watever nonsense as in my blog. This blog no longer becomes a secret when move into BB. I guess every of my housemates knew when I am writing blog, just they keep quiet about that.
That's one of the cons part staying tgt, u seldom have own privacy. My working place is situated at the most significant place in the house. Right in front of living room where anyone passes by know wat am i doin.
Sometimes I just want to watch some stupid shows, when housemate just pop his head over to my desktop and asked: hey, wat r u watching. Suddenly, I dun have the mood to watch the show. (I remember once when I wanna watch' sex and the city' drama, if they knew i'm watching this, I will become a big gossip issue, and so I moved cs' laptop to a position they can't see). Since when, watching drama becomes such a hassle.
Sometimes I just wanna surf some travel blogs and air fare website when housemates passed by asking, hey, u wanna go travel? So free? and that so, I dun feel like surfing net anymore.
I was a drama addict. Not so now, i guess some reason may be due to my current situation at home. I can't really enjoy my drama when ppl peeing at wat am i watching. I dun like the feeling.
I guess I realise now the importance of privacy. I miss my time in NTU where I can surf net without irritation. I miss my little corner where I can do whatever I like. I miss the long lost freedom.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Skin Food. Body Shop. Fanatic
The great urge to buy skin care products started when one day, zuan zai realized her skin need nutrition. So.. we went to CS to explore. Body Shop emm, not to zuan's flavour. Then skin food. Ok, something strike our eyes, as zuan's face needs moisturizing more than others, the sales girl recommended the lettuce + cucumber power hydrating series. At last, we decided to buy the essence and emulsion, cost around RM120++... this time we are all way out... for zuan's 21yrs times.. she's gg to treat her skin a good feast. Butttt..... something caught my eye, haiz... gals are always that calculative and we cannot refrain from temptation. There's a board wrote " Spend RM200 and above get a diary".. and u know, the diary is so so cute, sweet plus the sales girl fantastic persuasive skill... at last, we add on a RM80+ eye lightening serum... to get the cute diary... and there goes our RM200..-_-"
When the money spent, u need to be happy. So, we happily decorate all our proudly skin care products into one basket. Here's the list, the neutrogena toner, the skin food lettuce + cucumber essence n emulsion, my existing Biotherm moisturizer and Body Shop Tea tree skin blemish care, all into the one precious basket.
A week after skin food retail therapy. One day, happily we went to IMM to shop. And and ther's a great sign showing 'THE BODY SHOP' sales. OMG, there's goes my Jan salary again... ok, when there's a good bargain, u know is too hard to just leave the site without NOTHING. So, we enter the dangerous area, out with $80 worth of Body Shop products. Strawberry, Mango, Sunkist, Grapefruit, Japaness Cherry Blossom, aqua lily and the ** Shimmering ** merry cranbury body lotion. Hee. ok, we dunno why we bought so many body lotion for wat also, ther's no much reason when a gal shop! But, except the shimmering body lotion, the rest are small convenience bottles... that's not much anyway.. ok, I know i am trying to make myself feel better, that my $$ is well spent.
So, now.. we gonna add on another basket, esp for BODY SHOP products. Grrr. My spending power seemed to increase alot... but my earning power is still the same... Argh... izit a sign means I have to source for something, to earn xtra?
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Reality
"I'm still not used to writing date ending with 2010"... this shall be my first thought of year 2010 =D.
New year represents some sort of new life. Yep, is true for me. I guess entering into NIE opens a new phase of experiences. However, I am still struggling to overcome the 'Holiday too idle syndrome'. Guess i need some time to recover, regain the energy.
Okie, some opening good news for the new year=D. Ann zai, well, scores extremely well for her O-level. She said she cried like shit, which I believe is true. I guess she has never been so determined and hardworking before, and probably this is the first time she realizes what is important. Keep up the good job for ur A-level and of course ur Uni life. Sometimes, when I reflect back to my dear little sis secondary study journey, I wonder what's going to happen if she didn't receive the scholarship. How will she be if she's still in Mxxa. We often ridicule she will be the next gangster head if she's still in kt. u can write a story of ur life, ann zai. On how u transform from devil into emm.. angel?Ok, not to that extreme.
This links me to the importance of education. As an educator now, I witness so much difference bet Sg education and my own country. In a country that can't even decide the language of study, how far do u hope your people can do for you. In a country that emphasizes that much on particular race study context and set a stupid moral module that attempts to fail everyone, how loyal do you want your people to be for you. and i guess they dun even bother to accept u as own ppl except when u r needed. Wat ridiculous ' 1 Mxxxxxxa ’ remark, that is so fake. Cherish what you have, sgreanss...dun always complain the foreign talents grab all your goodies. We are just the minority seeking for a new land for some opportunities and yet there are far more durable chances for you that u never realize. Perhaps when you look at another perspective, some complaining and stop comparing, you will find your own land.
New year represents some sort of new life. Yep, is true for me. I guess entering into NIE opens a new phase of experiences. However, I am still struggling to overcome the 'Holiday too idle syndrome'. Guess i need some time to recover, regain the energy.
Okie, some opening good news for the new year=D. Ann zai, well, scores extremely well for her O-level. She said she cried like shit, which I believe is true. I guess she has never been so determined and hardworking before, and probably this is the first time she realizes what is important. Keep up the good job for ur A-level and of course ur Uni life. Sometimes, when I reflect back to my dear little sis secondary study journey, I wonder what's going to happen if she didn't receive the scholarship. How will she be if she's still in Mxxa. We often ridicule she will be the next gangster head if she's still in kt. u can write a story of ur life, ann zai. On how u transform from devil into emm.. angel?Ok, not to that extreme.
This links me to the importance of education. As an educator now, I witness so much difference bet Sg education and my own country. In a country that can't even decide the language of study, how far do u hope your people can do for you. In a country that emphasizes that much on particular race study context and set a stupid moral module that attempts to fail everyone, how loyal do you want your people to be for you. and i guess they dun even bother to accept u as own ppl except when u r needed. Wat ridiculous ' 1 Mxxxxxxa ’ remark, that is so fake. Cherish what you have, sgreanss...dun always complain the foreign talents grab all your goodies. We are just the minority seeking for a new land for some opportunities and yet there are far more durable chances for you that u never realize. Perhaps when you look at another perspective, some complaining and stop comparing, you will find your own land.
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Holidayss 2 - The Friends Episode
Ok, I admit I have not played enough. Just few days after the Mc-Sz-Hk trip, Shirlin asked me whether I would like to join the Malacca trip, I answered her immediately ' Yes, why not. Count me in', and here we go.. Malacca- historical city of Malaysia =D...
My memories of Malacca was the Sec 2 School trip, organized by Teacher Tang. A fade scene in my mind of Malacca is the red house, the butterfly farm, durian cendol and a big ship, and of course A Famosa, this one I vividly remember, because the little princess Ann zai spoilt it all...
Historical walk =)
The food episode- we waited 1 hr for the famous satay cellup-_-'. It is worthwhile anyway.
Besides satay cellup, tried also the famous Chicken rice ball, the most original one according to Tc, I like this the most. Durian cendol. Bah Kut Teh, Dim sum.. wuahahaha.
New tourist spot in Malacca- the eye and the tamang sari tower.
Malacca is a nice place with good food and nice view. At the historical area, the A famosa and the gate, I was like return to Macao =)They were all under Portugis , so have the same architectures. Just one thing about Malacca that i dun like, the traffic but I guess they are doing their best to expand the road.
One more thing, I saw more Singaporeans than local tourists in Malacca... Out of 10 cars in the hotel, 9 are Sg cars.. which means Malacca becomes the latest weekend escape spots for Singaporeans? It could be a good news to boost the local tourist industry but I hope it doesn't cause inflation in prices of food and goods there.
Thanks again Tc for organizing this short but sweet trip. I guess the rain doesn't spoil our mood =). Thanks also to the guys who took turns driving the car.
My memories of Malacca was the Sec 2 School trip, organized by Teacher Tang. A fade scene in my mind of Malacca is the red house, the butterfly farm, durian cendol and a big ship, and of course A Famosa, this one I vividly remember, because the little princess Ann zai spoilt it all...
Historical walk =)
The food episode- we waited 1 hr for the famous satay cellup-_-'. It is worthwhile anyway.
Besides satay cellup, tried also the famous Chicken rice ball, the most original one according to Tc, I like this the most. Durian cendol. Bah Kut Teh, Dim sum.. wuahahaha.
New tourist spot in Malacca- the eye and the tamang sari tower.
Malacca is a nice place with good food and nice view. At the historical area, the A famosa and the gate, I was like return to Macao =)They were all under Portugis , so have the same architectures. Just one thing about Malacca that i dun like, the traffic but I guess they are doing their best to expand the road.
One more thing, I saw more Singaporeans than local tourists in Malacca... Out of 10 cars in the hotel, 9 are Sg cars.. which means Malacca becomes the latest weekend escape spots for Singaporeans? It could be a good news to boost the local tourist industry but I hope it doesn't cause inflation in prices of food and goods there.
Thanks again Tc for organizing this short but sweet trip. I guess the rain doesn't spoil our mood =). Thanks also to the guys who took turns driving the car.
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Holidayss 1- The Family Episode
The long waited family trip. After the much disappointed Bangkok plan, this Mc-Sz-Hk trip held a great stress over me. I cannot accept another blow if this time the airplane or whatever political chaos or h1n1 pandemic stop my holiday plan. Blessed, i finally brought my family except Jie oversea to Mc-Sz-Hk.
I guess a picture wins over a thousand words... lets just post some holidays pic =). Thx zuan for making these pictures. =)
Oct east --> The wetland garden
Macao-- The historical and entertaining city.
Hong Kong-- the peak n wax museum.
Oct east
There's a lot of lessons and memories for my first oversea family trip. Sometimes I may be too anxious to show them what to see during the trip that I overlooked my parents esp my father's needs. Free n Easy is tiring n requires lots of walking which may not be suitable for elderly. This is one thing I need to take note. Anyway, is a nice trip and I enjoy listening to my father's great discovery of sz life which I never noticed during the last trip, 'How come Sz never has fatso. The fattest is your mummy', he said. =)
I guess a picture wins over a thousand words... lets just post some holidays pic =). Thx zuan for making these pictures. =)
Oct east --> The wetland garden
Macao-- The historical and entertaining city.
Hong Kong-- the peak n wax museum.
Oct east
There's a lot of lessons and memories for my first oversea family trip. Sometimes I may be too anxious to show them what to see during the trip that I overlooked my parents esp my father's needs. Free n Easy is tiring n requires lots of walking which may not be suitable for elderly. This is one thing I need to take note. Anyway, is a nice trip and I enjoy listening to my father's great discovery of sz life which I never noticed during the last trip, 'How come Sz never has fatso. The fattest is your mummy', he said. =)
Thursday, November 12, 2009
How Many Times...
No invigilation duty today, after that day the invi mistake, now i felt so odd to go for any invi duty. Luckily, there's only one more day left.
1 student sent me her blogspot add, in her blog posts, most of it mingled around her messy life, her broken family, her boring life. At that instant, I felt so much to reply her; life is not boring. U determine ur own life, although u might from a broken family, but it shouldn't block ur way towards pursuing the lilfe u want. I hope she won't blame her mother anymore, because from wat I see, her mother still loves her alot. When something happens in life, we like to put the fault on others, how many times do we really thought about our own mistake?
Talked about 'the gal' that day. I knew my fren will stay by her. Alot of times, frens told me this is none of my business. If he really wants to go bec to her side, it is none of my concern also, I'm not his parents or family. I told my fren, if one day, they 2 are really together, I won't give them any blessings. I said that. I'm not purposely want to make my fren life worse, I knew he will feel bad because of him, I hate the gal so much. But when I truely think abt it, it is no longer totally because of my good fren, is because of the gal's character. Some mistakes in life cannot be fixed. When once there's someone give u so much concern and loves which u reject and even hurt the person, and now you want to get it back. Sorry, I will only look down at you.
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These days have been quite free, not much school duties. I hate gg out the room early in the morning if i'm not required to go school, wk would ask:' today no sch again, so nice to be a teacher, so free.' Not sure is it teaching trained my EQ, I did not show my temper, just rebuke him that since he felt that so, why not take up teaching? He just barely answered because he is not interested.... Always, people like to compare and envy of others, how many times do we really cherish of what we have? I knew every jobs has its difficulty, so I never give any sarcastic comments to their jobs since I didn't even try of these jobs. As teacher, I need to overcome the fear of speaking in fronts of others, so many times, I need to control my temper when dealing with groups of monkeys. So many times, I need to think of ways to encounter questions from students and even teachers and not to say crack my brain for more creative lessons for students. When late in night I'm still preparing for next day lesson while others who claim they work from 9 to 6 which to them is consider so much hardworking than teachers is playing and surfing nets, how many of you really realize I'm busy, teachers are busy, and more, we do not have OT. Please stop comparing, that will only make your own life suffering.
Reading 'Rich Dad, Poor Dad' at the moment. The book teaches us how to become rich. But wat more, I feel that this book is actually teaching us how to look at your own life, what do you want for ur life and how to look at people characteristic. The book challenges the belief that bright kids with professional jobs will be rich. When I'm reading it, I realized that my school education does not even teach me about money. We have the belief from young, from secondary sch when we are choosing elective subjects. The brighter ones will go to science stream, the not so bright or so called useless kids go to the literature class. School trains the brighter one to become professional people, but not rich people. In one of the chapter which Robert wrote about 'Work to learn; Don't work for money', that talked about a writer who has a great talent in writing, but her novels just cannot sell. When Robert recommended her to take up selling and marketing course, she rebuked that she is a highly educated, professional trained writer that do not required selling course, like a low standard course to help her. Sometimes, our pride leads us to dead road, it blinds us from looking clearly for opportunities. Highly educated doesn't mean you are top of others. Highly educated doesn't mean you do not need further learning.
Look at things at different ways. Do not block your own views. =D
1 student sent me her blogspot add, in her blog posts, most of it mingled around her messy life, her broken family, her boring life. At that instant, I felt so much to reply her; life is not boring. U determine ur own life, although u might from a broken family, but it shouldn't block ur way towards pursuing the lilfe u want. I hope she won't blame her mother anymore, because from wat I see, her mother still loves her alot. When something happens in life, we like to put the fault on others, how many times do we really thought about our own mistake?
Talked about 'the gal' that day. I knew my fren will stay by her. Alot of times, frens told me this is none of my business. If he really wants to go bec to her side, it is none of my concern also, I'm not his parents or family. I told my fren, if one day, they 2 are really together, I won't give them any blessings. I said that. I'm not purposely want to make my fren life worse, I knew he will feel bad because of him, I hate the gal so much. But when I truely think abt it, it is no longer totally because of my good fren, is because of the gal's character. Some mistakes in life cannot be fixed. When once there's someone give u so much concern and loves which u reject and even hurt the person, and now you want to get it back. Sorry, I will only look down at you.
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These days have been quite free, not much school duties. I hate gg out the room early in the morning if i'm not required to go school, wk would ask:' today no sch again, so nice to be a teacher, so free.' Not sure is it teaching trained my EQ, I did not show my temper, just rebuke him that since he felt that so, why not take up teaching? He just barely answered because he is not interested.... Always, people like to compare and envy of others, how many times do we really cherish of what we have? I knew every jobs has its difficulty, so I never give any sarcastic comments to their jobs since I didn't even try of these jobs. As teacher, I need to overcome the fear of speaking in fronts of others, so many times, I need to control my temper when dealing with groups of monkeys. So many times, I need to think of ways to encounter questions from students and even teachers and not to say crack my brain for more creative lessons for students. When late in night I'm still preparing for next day lesson while others who claim they work from 9 to 6 which to them is consider so much hardworking than teachers is playing and surfing nets, how many of you really realize I'm busy, teachers are busy, and more, we do not have OT. Please stop comparing, that will only make your own life suffering.
Reading 'Rich Dad, Poor Dad' at the moment. The book teaches us how to become rich. But wat more, I feel that this book is actually teaching us how to look at your own life, what do you want for ur life and how to look at people characteristic. The book challenges the belief that bright kids with professional jobs will be rich. When I'm reading it, I realized that my school education does not even teach me about money. We have the belief from young, from secondary sch when we are choosing elective subjects. The brighter ones will go to science stream, the not so bright or so called useless kids go to the literature class. School trains the brighter one to become professional people, but not rich people. In one of the chapter which Robert wrote about 'Work to learn; Don't work for money', that talked about a writer who has a great talent in writing, but her novels just cannot sell. When Robert recommended her to take up selling and marketing course, she rebuked that she is a highly educated, professional trained writer that do not required selling course, like a low standard course to help her. Sometimes, our pride leads us to dead road, it blinds us from looking clearly for opportunities. Highly educated doesn't mean you are top of others. Highly educated doesn't mean you do not need further learning.
Look at things at different ways. Do not block your own views. =D
Sunday, November 1, 2009
In Sunday Mood- My dream 1
I spent this weekend mostly on updating my blog, read on books and magazines and then I came across this book ' The 100 Places a person should go', chinese version which i bought in Shenzhen.
When always we were asked about our dreams, most will say: to travel around the world, however, in the end, how many of us could really achieve it? When in 20s, we said this is the time to start work hard, earn money and prepare for our dream. In 30s, we start building up a new family,and this dream gradually moves away slowly from our mind. In 40s, our life mingles around family and children. 50s approaching and comes 60s when our physical no longer supports our dreams.
It sounds so sad when we look back our life journey, most of our dreams are not achieved. But, to look at the other side, dreams support our life. It makes our life wonderful and colorful. I believe the process counts, not the result.
So, I have a dream, which is to visit the Top 10 destinations in my mind, the list goes as below.
rocky mountain Kilimanjaro
Hokaido Switzerland
Vermont New Zealand
Maldives Niagara Falls
2 more--- to be continued.
When always we were asked about our dreams, most will say: to travel around the world, however, in the end, how many of us could really achieve it? When in 20s, we said this is the time to start work hard, earn money and prepare for our dream. In 30s, we start building up a new family,and this dream gradually moves away slowly from our mind. In 40s, our life mingles around family and children. 50s approaching and comes 60s when our physical no longer supports our dreams.
It sounds so sad when we look back our life journey, most of our dreams are not achieved. But, to look at the other side, dreams support our life. It makes our life wonderful and colorful. I believe the process counts, not the result.
So, I have a dream, which is to visit the Top 10 destinations in my mind, the list goes as below.
rocky mountain Kilimanjaro
Hokaido Switzerland
Vermont New Zealand
Maldives Niagara Falls
2 more--- to be continued.
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