One fine evening, I sat by the balcony, looking around at the resort-like hall, if i were to forget the opposite room staying that unshameful gal. (yes, I'm staying in hostel with shared balcony :p).

Suddenly, I felt so fortunate at the moment. I'm lucky to have a chance staying in this hall. I'm lucky to study in NTU ( eventhough SBS sucks quite lot). I'm lucky to meet my dear, soul friends. I'm lucky to be in the See Family Pte Ltd. I have everything i need and yet sometimes I'm complaining.

Life should be easier without worries. But if without an aim, ur life seems meaningless, but with an aim yet can't achieve it, ur life is miserable. Where is the balance point? No one can tell the answer, because you can't say: Just let go and pursue ur dream. If you are burdenless, fine, you can go on to do wat you want. But when there's so many things on the way waiting for you to settle and to take on the responsibility, it is not that easy to just say: let go.

Life is good if I look at the good side even in the midst of problems. I would still want to live with aims, so that, I could have some stories to tell when I'm old.

Ok, back to book. Still have 4 papers on the way. Enjoy the exams, like wat Ravi said.

Myself

Harmony-seeking Idealist (HI) ???

In order to noe more abt myself, I did a personality test. A 5 minute test to know I'm A Harmony-seeking idealist ... =)

( A rather long post, skip it if you don't like)

It says I need to ans a few question.

First: Am I an extrovert or Introvert?

The following statements apply more to me:
I need a lot of time alone.
I can concentrate on the matter in hand.
I am more the reserved type and approach new relationships carefully.
I think things over intensively before I act. ( should be: My sis said I need a rather long time to make decision)
I am not one for large parties; I prefer a quiet evening with just a few good friends. (yes!)
I like to spend my spare time alone and to daydream. (Definitely)
Very few know what I really think.
I am not easily worked up.
My idea of a dream holiday is more a solo trip; perhaps to a lonely island or a trekking trip in the mountains. (not really: prefer dua/tiga close fren along. Plus, I DON"T LIKE HIKING)
If something weighs on my mind, I would sooner try to sort it out for myself.(Looks like)

***You are the introverted type.****

Second: Am I a sensor or intuitive?

The following statements apply more to me:
When making decisions, I mostly let myself be guided by my intuition. ( think so, i believe my intuition)
I do not like it when everything is exactly foreseeable.
I give problems considerable thought in order to find solutions. (yes, that's why take a long time)
I prefer to work theoretically.
I need my own personal space and a lot of time to myself.
I enjoy starting something new - I quickly become bored with old projects.
One could almost say that I have a philosophical streak.
I prefer to work roughly - but the result is usually still okay.
I am always searching for new ideas and improvement possibilities. (ya)
I think a lot about the future. (yes.. )

**You are the intuitive type. **

Third: Thinker or Feeler?

The following statements apply more to me:
I mostly base my decisions on my instinct. (yes yes)
I like working with people and have no difficulty empathizing with them and being responsive to them.
I try not to hurt others with my words.
I tend to concentrate more on the positive sides of a person and do not find weaknesses to be so bad.
I am always the first person people call if they have something new to tell.
I am rather sensitive and am quickly hurt. (yes, so don't hurt me =`( )
I quickly sense when something is being said between the lines.
I try to avoid disputes because harmony is very important to me.
I listen to my feelings.
Feelings are important and should always be shown.


You are the feeling type. --> This is a bit contrary, I think 'am a thinker too.. based on my feeling, i think...

The following statements apply more to me:
I prefer to plan everything in advance.
One thing after the other. (Definitely; don't throw too much things for me at the same time)
I am normally punctual and reliable - I do not like it when others are unpunctual.
First work then pleasure. (sure: I like to enjoy last after work, that's why called relaxation)
I prefer everything to be in its right place.
I like to make quick, clear decisions and expect the same of others. ( my sis said i make slow decision... emm)
I need order and structure and it gets on my nerves if people do not stick to arrangements.
I plan my work carefully so that there is no hectic rush at the end. ( not exactly carefully...
I already know exactly what I will be doing next weekend.
I mostly do things I do not like doing first so that I have them behind me. (yes, finish off and never touch it again)


SOO... I'm a Harmony Seeking Idealist =)

Harmony-seeking Idealists are characterised by a complex personality and an abundance of thoughts and feelings. They are warm-hearted persons by nature. They are sympathetic and understanding. Harmony-seeking Idealists expect a lot of themselves and of others. They have a strong understanding of human nature and are often very good judges of character. But they are mostly reserved and confide their thoughts and feelings to very few people they trust. They are deeply hurt by rejection or criticism.

Harmony-seeking Idealists find conflict situations unpleasant and prefer harmonious relationships. However, if reaching a certain target is very important to them they can assert themselves with a doggedness bordering on obstinacy.

Harmony-seeking Idealists have a lively fantasy, often an almost clairvoyant intuition and are often very creative. Once they have tackled a project, they do everything in their power to achieve their goals. In everyday life, they often prove to be excellent problem solvers. They like to get to the root of things and have a natural curiosity and a thirst for knowledge. At the same time, they are practically oriented, well organised and in a position to tackle complex situations in a structured and carefully considered manner. When they concentrate on something, they do so one hundred percent - they often become so immersed in a task that they forget everything else around them. That is the secret of their often very large professional success.


p/s: Anyone interested can go to this website: http://www.ipersonic.com/

I'm wondering...

Is human behaviour related to our genotype / phenotype? Can personality be explained in the point of view of genetic make-up? In other words, can mankind be manipulated by science, can behaviour be interpreted in science facts?

This may be the kind of questions I'm looking for the answer if I were have a chance to do research on. I'm curious on human behaviour and more, their personality. Once a report stated, our sexual illusion is depended on the level of hormone in our body, that is, this kind of protein, gene regulation can manipulate our mind to do or imagine something. We also say, there's some certainty that our IQ level is depended on our genetic. If we say someone, 江山易改， 本性难移, can it be related to our phenotype?

Art Combi Science. When there 's a cross point over these 2 curves, this is where we can explain human behaviour in scientific term. I'm learning to observe different human behaviours in different situations. Human behaviour is interesting in a way that there is an infinity answers to what and why a person acts so. I'm trying to understand how these observation serve to let me better judging a person. I believe, the most difficult thing to grasp is how to read a person's mind. That is the most interior part of every person as it does not provide u a definite answer, and how, we can make everyone be truthful to each other... that is a tough question.

Spend some time to observe your surrounding.. it might be fun

Tamade

Bloody Hell....
never seen such types of people,
Since you are smart enuf ( personally i think only academic wise)
Then DUN be Copycat, DUN use tricks to cheat people...
Please la, u got all the things u wan to be urs... so dun grab from others...
AND another thing, dun be so selfish, kiasu la...Hypocrite,

I hate hypocrite and copycats (those person who follow or copy ur work and apparently treat as their own ideas)

$%&^(&(*&)*_)... Bloody Hell...

Sys bio presentation

Sys Bio Presentation

Finally.... the presentation that took hell of my time ended..

Wuahahaha, I luv my groupmates, all of you, that have put in effort the finish the slides.

Though I read papers until wanna vomit ,

Though I'm getting sick to look at MFC,

BUT... I couldn't deny I enjoyed doing work together with our grps..

The nite b4 burnt nite oil at SBS CR... every single effort to improve our design.. no stress, everyone doing, chatting, n joking at the same times...Yes, that's called a group project.

So, let's u guys c our design model... Wuahahaha..

$$ Money Money Money $$

nowaday reading the newspaper, all is about the global economy going recession, bank brankrupt, retrenchment, money not enuf etc etc.

Actually, I'm not really understand how the economy flows, but 1 thing I dun understand is where has the money gone? The money can't just disappear from the earth rite? And human is the one to control of the money flow, but why human make themselves into an economy crisis?

So, I come out with a so-called ' Simple Money Flowchart' to investigate where the money gone?

See, if a company buys inventories or invest, that is $ outflow, but the $ is received by the suppliers. Same thing, if the company sells the inventories or share, they receive $ and the customers have $ outflow to the company. So, actually the $ is circulating, is just to different ppl. So when we ask the ques: Where did the money gone? The answer should be: The $$$ is always there, just circulated to different ppl. So, why there is an economy crisis when the money is always there?

Human is the one to control the system, money is just the object being used to facililate the transaction going on. If not enough money, that's the problem with human, becox U r the one to estimate how many new $ notes to print, U r the one that create inflation, recession. Becox human are selfish, we are unhappy if more $ is distributed to others: Etc, Country A plans to print more money notes, then other countries not happy becox u can't print extra money without we ourselves do so too. So, everyone not printing, then everyone has no $ received. That's the problem.

But then: Where's my $$$ gone too? Shit, still owning a loan to pay... I'm broke at this stage!! =(

Tired

I am tired of thinking abt my future.
I am tired of ppl asking have I started looking for job, what kind of job, what company n what salary i'm targetting at or even did any company head-hunted me. Sorry, I'm not the smart one, and I dun ever think I would be head-hunted.
I am tired of studies.

How much I wish someone can just offer me a job which suited me next sem , as I have yet found out what suited me at the moment.
How much I wish someone can sponsor me to travel around in exchange by publishing a travel diary ( I will be more than willing to accept it). ok, i know this is day-dreaming.
How much I wish I could be not worry about so much uncertainties.

think I'm getting driven away from Bio. Could not compare with the peers.. I could say if i just simply pin-point anyone from my batch, they can transverse their Bio knowledge so much better than me.. Felt so small, felt so invinsible.. Am i entering the wrong course or Am i getting more n more discouraged from the reality. Where is the former enthu, determined n perfectionist me? Ok, I now know the meaning of being disgraded.

Need to find a new source of motivation. My accounting lec said today: When there's a problem; ther ll be many solutions. Just depends on whether u found the solution or not. So, my next step will be: While on the way to find how my road is going to be, I have to enjoy the learning process. Grab as much skills n ability b4 getting out to the battlefield. Still have a long way to go. Give me some time n chance, to prove to myself and You who trust me.