After graduation

Unofficially, my 4 yrs university life ended yesterday.
The scary month of April gone so, I didn't realise at all. Welcome by a new wave of May life.
From the rushing of thesis report, to the settling of new home in B.Batok and to MOE offers, I never felt so much changes in just 1 month.

I know the road infront maybe not be smooth.
I know the people I am going to meet soon will be not truthful as I thought.
But, I need to accomodate to the new life after graduation.

I appreciate the offer of MOE at the real mean time.
Which solve tons of problems for me.
And now, before quiet down and prepare for my future job,
I would like a short break first, to Hong Kong, my 2nd overseas backpacking trip.
Hoping the H1N1 flu pandemic will stop as soon, would not like to have another disappointment again.... pls pls...

大学生涯， 意味着什么？

当大学生涯即将落幕时， 又意味着什么？

交上毕业论文的那时刻， 心抽了几分。

我即将结束的读书生涯， 即将步入人生另各阶段的开始。 心里很感叹， 原来， 要踏出第一步的确不容易。 这一步， 不再象以往由父母决定， 不能再倚赖他人。 厌倦了跟父母拿钱的日子， 想要以自己的能力， 反以照顾他们， 却又舍不得这无忧无虑的读书生涯。

曾经很想快点毕业， 找份工， 赚钱花。 现在要毕业了， 却感到茫然， 以后的路怎么走， 喜欢做些什么， 要做些什么， 我一点头绪都没有。 其实好想有人帮我安排，什么都不用想。

那天看到两只猫一幅悠哉闲哉躺在马路上， 突然有感而发， 上天为什么要制造猫这动物， 它活着的意义是什么？为了抓老鼠， 或成为人类的另类朋友？如果每样生物都有他存在的意义， 那么人类活着的意义在哪？我相信其实每一样生物有他自己的生命的定格， 还有和外物的联系， 形成他的命运。 而要怎样彩画你的人生， 由你自己决定。 前方的路也许一片茫然， 但我相信只要跟着自己的信念走， 总会找到那一条由我革画出的一条路。

南大情怀 （二）

大情怀 （二）

写着毕业论文的当儿， 想透透气， 继续我的南大情怀 （二）篇。

来到第二年，慢慢熟悉南大的步伐， 对着忙碌的功课与活动也已麻木。

第二年， 是疯狂的一年， 是快乐与无助交措的一年。

疯狂， 因为无数次的唱k跳舞， 被括称‘疯女人’， 数不清的下新山次数。

快乐， 因为找到知己， 陪伴我有时郁闷， 快乐， 难过的大学生涯。 但是付出的也不少， 从认识，欣赏，到接受对方的缺点， 和调解二十二年单身生活， 这过程中难免有时感到一丝丝失落感。

无助， 因为对SBS的功课压力， 学业上的绝望。

第二年， 朋友圈子慢慢加入了许多新成员， 有JJ, wg, wk etc etc... 但是和SBS的朋友， 可能因为疏远， 变得很少联络。 人， 有时不能顾及太多。

（Mid Autumn 2006)

Merdeka Nite 2006

南大情怀 (一）

1 month more, I ll be leaving my second home in Sg. That's sound so contradict feeling.
When I reflected of my 4 yrs life in NTU, I could say, it was a memorable journey to me, both sad and happy moment. I meet new people, new things now and then. I learn new skills and lesson from failure. I cried, laughed and screamed in this University.

July 2005, 4 years ago, when I was just a little arrogant girl from a small kampung, with my dear hometown frens, Wenjian, the long-time fren that actually helped me alot along the way in NTU, Billy, the small eye KT fren and of course Shirlin, my prospective sister in NTU. 4 kampung people, doing different courses, with different perspective and personalities came together and eventually stayed together at Hall 9.

After FOC, which I truely appreciate the seniors for making it, get us to know more people and frens from other part of Malaysia, then, our circle of frens become bigger and bigger. Let me kindly remember who appeared in my first year life: First of all, Kuan Seong, the 大三脚 guy, Keyeng, the Kulai 仔, Ghean, the one living below our floor, Tchin, the Malacca smart one, Jp, the small and witty guy, Ah giap, another bamboo stick like me n others . and of course, my SBS dear frens, Jenny, the Sibu gal, my soulmate in SBS, James,my night jogging partner, Hanchi etc etc. I will never forget the dinner time at can 9, the night suppers, the night jogging, the small and big talks.

My first year in NTU turned out to be 'not much problem', if ther is any, that could only be my academic achievement. Not much home sick, no discipline record yet. Most of the time, i was turning around the cca, brainhunt, MSA late nite meeting, I have not much time to explore the NTU culture yet, passed by other CCA that I love to but didn't take up.

An important pinpoint which bring me closer to my frens in first year, the year end undergraduate trip to Redang, this was a trip i never forget, not because of the beautiful beaches,nor the unestimate underwater. But the moments we r together. I remember the night talks, the 'true or courage' games, all sorts of funny questions and answers, the ghosts stories, and of course the beach party...... that slowly bring out my crazyness towards singK and dancing.

Life of year one ended so. Like a life cycle, this was just the starting, the introductory phase, where new things jumbled in, new people come across and pass by in seconds, I encountered frens quarrels, the evil sides of gals in Year 1. All these sparking fire, endless gossip making my first year life ever colourful.

Slumdog Millionaire

Slumdog Millionaire

Seldom, there's a movie that can make me rate it 5 stars. 'Slumdog Millionaire' is one of them.

"..A Mumbai teen who grew up in the slums, becomes a contestant on the Indian version of "Who Wants To Be A Millionaire?" He is arrested under suspicion of cheating, and while being interrogated, events from his life history are shown which explain why he knows the answers. Desperate to prove his innocence, Jamal tells the story of his life in the slum where he and his brother grew up, of their adventures together on the road, of vicious encounters with local gangs, and of Latika, the girl he loved and lost. Each chapter of his story reveals the key to the answer to one of the game show's questions. Each chapter of Jamal's increasingly layered story reveals where he learned the answers to the show's seemingly impossible quizzes. "

(The story's summary i got from imdb. )

I knew long ago India has a discrimination of class, which was shown in this movie also. But i never know it was so bad. The movie has precisely bring out the balance of love and money. love the scene when it came to the last question, wher Jamal called his bro, Samal for help, and it wasLatika who took up the phone. When the host announced only 15 sec left for the phone call, wat's Jamal asked was just wher r u, how r u, Latika? The answer to the 2B Rupee ques seemed meaningless to him.

Happiness. Simplicity. Cherish. Grateful

It's has been has a long time since my last post,

but it seemed like CNY has just passed not long ago,

I brought along a table calendar from home, with space between each day,

to remind me what to do for the following week. and so I did.

For my job hunting process, it still appeared blur. So many graduates, so few jobs.


For my FYP, April will be a horrible month. The thesis, the poster presentation which will make hell of my life by then.


For my house searching process, that only just started not long ago and so sudden, SAO NTU seemed determine to kick us out, because of just a 2 weeks event of Youth Olympic, everyone has to moved out.


For my graduation trip, which suppose to be a happy matter, but turned out not so, I finally understand 1 thing, if you r not backpacking alone, is better you have a same wavelength with ur travel mate. Seriously, I hope my grad trip could be a successful one.





The month of Feb is a mixture of feeling, The early Feb was welcomed by flu virus, the mid of Feb was the love season, and so i greet it with my hand drawing pic as shown below.

Happiness. Simplicity. Cherish. Grateful - my philosophy of life.

New Year

" Dong Dong Qiang"

Bull year, my year. As a quote, if we say the share market is like a bull, it means the share market is heavenly good; vice versa, if it is a bear, that means drop like hell. But this bull year seemed to be a different story, the economy is so gloomy, the share market is soo 'red'. So happen, I'm gg out to the working society-finally, this mid year. Argh, it appeared to be a big problem.

let's talk abt the CNY celebration first. Finally, after all the silent arguement and discussion, we set to bec Muar on the eve of New Year and 'Chu yi' in Gemas. Why say silent arguement, because we did not even sit together and discuss whether gg bec or not. We 4 siss by right have no comment on the decision. No matter wat we say, will be wrong for sure, so just keep quiet.

Then happily, I say short term Goodbye to my lab in Fri Morg. I'm kinda excited, cox it seemed to be a long long time I step out of the lab at 11am Morg. Everytime I out of the lab, is already night.=( The air is so fresh, the wind is just right, everything seems so good to be a perfect day. Then, went home with Jie n Wjian,stopby City Square to have a bowl of Chicken Slice Horfun.. yuummmy.

Sat, we 4 siss this year will be the chef for our own reunion dinner. Actually, in the end, mummy still do the most cooking. We found a damn cut kitten btw, but lost it the same day. Wonder where it is now, so pitiful, izit our fault cox whenever a cute kitten in our house with our presence, it will disappear for sure. There's one day, zuan n i return to our old house back alley, and saw dozens of kitten stay happilly there, this will never happen if we still stay in the same house, the back lane will never have that number of Animals!! Funny. We DID NOT abuse the kitten, at most bathe for them only le......

Mixed feeling, upset yet happy, our reunion dinner with the year theme "abalone and Mushrooms, 's' cox all kinds of mushroom, " as the main dishes.

The next day, the eve. Back to muar. This year, with extraodinary horizontally growing rate of Ann zai and Zuan, the back seats get more cramp, plus the stupid Msia government law of back seat safety belt rule, the first time I hate sitting in the car. Muar.. emm, not much difference since I do not really miss this place, if not to give Papa some 'face', i will not stay. I don't think they wash the blanket and tilam for years, Next time have to remember: Bring sleeping bags. Pillows also if can. Forgot to put a mark on it also, just to make sure next year back do they ever wash and touch the same blanket and case. Also, tackle all the standard questions: "Still need to study how long", "when coming out to work", "Wanna work as wat", "Economy so bad, u can find job or not".... blah blah blah. Pls. I also wanna get out of the sch asap, earn $$ asap.

Gemas, this year theme also BBQ. Then after BBQ, the common topics seemed to bec to our 24 xiao 2nd Aunt stories. Her unconditional love to her 2 super duper precious sons, her daughter with their 4th nonhuman child, the only dog ann dislike in the world. The stories of zuan's hotdog sticks been grabbed, Ann's untouchable and uneatable cheeseball were the best story ever of the year. Haa. Also not to forget our anually gathering at the Mamak Stall 4 Roti Kosong, Maggi Goreng n Teh Tarik. Best thing ever.

By the way, we suspect someone from Muar did not give us Ang Pau. It shouldn't be that difficult to miss one of 4 of us gua.. Right now we do not know who yet, but we did have a clue. Investigation is still on.

'Chu Si' back to my lab. Today seemed to be a bad bad day, cox everything goes wrong. Ever the time, I dunwan to do lab anymore, really cannot stand those 1ul, 0.5ul of things, who knows whether we really add that or not wor. I really cannot stand these type of job. Lab work will be my final choice. Wanna do something more humanity. Bio will not be the way, from wat I can see now. But I still need to stand this type of life for 3 more months, pls giv me strength and energy to the following tough days.

Guess I need to stop now, seemed to be a long post, and I need rest.