Yes, I am now having HOLIDAYSss

Shall I officially declare it on my fb, msn or even email to everyone?
Cox the first impression everyone has is: waa, teacher so good. can get two months holidays.

And when you are trying to tell them how hard you work that you deserve this holidays, and is not official two months, when we still need to prepare materials at home, meetings, ccas and planning. Well, they won't listen, they just couldn't get it.

To them, teaching is just talking nonsense in class and getting easy earn money, high hourly rate. and maybe a more relaxing job when you are married (for gals).

I'm not an engineer, and I never be. Is it the reason that's why I never compare my job to theirs. If i were to compare, well, you said you work almost 9 hrs in office but I could see you online total 9 hrs too during working. So, are you working for fb? When you back home and could put all the work aside to watch drama, chatting, do you even notice that I'm still rushing for presentation next day? You earn you two day weekends off to rest as much as you want, but I'm still struggling to come out with good lesson plans the next week.

I'm not trying to compare but just a space for me to vent my disappointment. I'm not trying to say teaching is a hard job too, because there are always harder and tougher job than this. I'm just trying to say; Don't compare. Do your own thing, say your own words. Why make yourself feeling worse to compare with something you are not in the position to comment?

The Dollar Sign

A sign that makes people crazy about. Well, can we say it changes people too?
I heard many people asking this question before. Are you working for money? So, do you?

Yes, to me,money is important. I need it to survive; I need it to achieve my big dream of travel around; I need it to build a better life. But, the satisfaction of work is equally important to me as well.

It has been a year since we first entered the working society, and the topics on the dinner table have been circling around the jobs, salary and still, salary. Sometimes, I get fed up of these, people envying each other of how high of one's salary, how many months of bonus ones get. So, this envy slowly turns into jealously, and well, what could we know how this jealously would turn to?

I find no point comparing each other, it just makes you sick, and listless of your current job. Keep on thinking of job hopping, higher salary or bigger power. A friend was thinking of changing job, because of the dollar sign but not the job prospect and the environment. I actually wanna give an advice, but I knew I'm not in that position to say it; If money is a matter, then go ahead to find a better one. But if money is not, please place the career prospect ahead of other issue. Dun let the dollar sign blinds your path!

And now I know, this dollar sign could change a person. No matter how hard you trying to deny.

Which one will you choose??

I often in this type of difficult situation.
If you are bilingual, which one will you choose to buy?


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Yes，i know is quite stupid to compare these two different language magazines.. By the way, the 'CLEO' would always give people an impression :this person is fashionable! Wow, she is cool, reading this magazines... bla bla.

But for people reading U mag, some might think: oh, she is so low class. Low standard ppl reading U mag.

I dunno why, but frankly speaking, I like U mag much much more than CLEO. U know when u flip CLEO mag, half of the mag is all all about advertisements, clothes..emm, feeling bit than my $4.60 gone half for all these ads. U mag does have ads also, but for $2.. u got to read all the gossips, interesting stories bla bla...it really worth! I will still go for U....

Just a nonsensical thought of these 2 mags...no offend... can't think of any other interesting things to write.

April

The last 2 weeks were like the busiest week in my life.... i hope not many more weeks like that.
They say practicum is even worse... Grrr... why they want to stress people to that point?

I realise I dun have anymore luxury time to spend for myself, out of NIE, out of work or study and that is bad.

But (trying to encourage myself again-_-), think about it, I still have time to play hotel city =D, I still have at least 6 hrs of nice sleep, I still able to move around, bla bla bla.. so, I should appreciate what I have now... Just move on, no more complain!!=)

Plus, just watched a video talking about Dr. Randy Pausch, his inspirational speech on Oprah show about 2 yrs ago. It is called 'The Last Lecture' talk cox Dr. Randy Pausch actually suffered from cancer when he gave this talk, he talked about his childhood dream, his work and his advice to people on how to live ur life... I guess I shouldn't have anymore complains... I should appreciate the chance to learn n work.

Busy March

A lot of things happening in March. Like I failed the SMMT test.. argh, suddenly hate Math so much. Like the never ending assignments and presentations. I wonder when is my free day. Dunno how many weekends have burned for assignmentssss.... meetingssss.... and meetingssss again. When you reach a point of time you dun ve motivation to do anything..... I understand your feeling, because this is what I feel now... so tiring =(...... I couldn't even find time to go back Msia.

I want to play.... I want to go Night Safari.... I want to go shopping....

夜晚

夜深人静的夜晚，
总是让人有特别多的感想。

三月，依然那么炎热，
届总而来的课业，
让我一时不习惯这种繁忙的生活，
我，还在质疑，
当老师的能力。

突然很想去旅行，
找寻生活的方向，
我，爱上了旅行的意义。
我想趁年轻，行走这个世界=）

Change of Heart

I just finish reading Jodi Picoult 'Change of Heart'. That is a very impressive and persuasive novel. I like the way Picoult questions at mankind. Let's keep aside the plot of the story, what I really want to write about this book is the way we look at human.

How do we define a bad guy? By their looks? Their professions? Or by your heart? To say it selfishlly, most of us judge by looks. How much do we really trust a person, let it be your closest friend? The society perspective often leads us to a same judgement. People with darker skin tend to be bad guy. People with slobby clothes are poor.

There's an incident in ICA when I need to take a photoshot at a studio there. The person before me is a handsome Ang Moh. Ok, I agree he is slightly more polite than me. But from the bottom of my heart, I dun think that is the reason why we are treated differently by the lady who helped us take photo. When is the Ang Moh turn, she smiled at him, service 100% perfect, helped him to adjust his position to get the best shot. But when is my turn, her attitude is like 180 degree change, I guess I didn't do anything to her before. Without any smile on her face, she just said: Dun move, flip your hair to the side.... Be it my own suspicious mind or watever, he is human, so am I? Then why are we treated differently?? Does he pay u more for the photo shot, or just the reason as simple as because of skin color?

I hate the mention of skin color. I hate even more the mention as second class citizen. There is all about races, religions. So, to be truthful, if there is a chance, do we get to choose where we are born? what are our skin color? Then, what the reason to make someone so special as the privileged citizens?

When someone mentioned statement like: Indian come to this country as beggar; Chinese esp gals as prostitute. These racist remarks as surprisingly, doesn not really affect me. I guess I have immuned to such things happen in my country, or is that another way saying I am abandoning my homeland? But the first thing that came into my mind, I feel ashamed of my country, I feel sorry for the person who said this, I feel sorry for him as one of the country leadermen, but show nothing except his brainless thinking. Resign doesn't mean to show your heroin acts. It doesn't really matter he left or not from this government, since most of them are of the same kind. 多一个，少一个，也没分别。He is just making fool of himself.

There is always unfairness in this world. As long as you are happy satisfied with your life now. I guess that is already a great life you are living. So, live it! =D