April

The last 2 weeks were like the busiest week in my life.... i hope not many more weeks like that.
They say practicum is even worse... Grrr... why they want to stress people to that point?

I realise I dun have anymore luxury time to spend for myself, out of NIE, out of work or study and that is bad.

But (trying to encourage myself again-_-), think about it, I still have time to play hotel city =D, I still have at least 6 hrs of nice sleep, I still able to move around, bla bla bla.. so, I should appreciate what I have now... Just move on, no more complain!!=)

Plus, just watched a video talking about Dr. Randy Pausch, his inspirational speech on Oprah show about 2 yrs ago. It is called 'The Last Lecture' talk cox Dr. Randy Pausch actually suffered from cancer when he gave this talk, he talked about his childhood dream, his work and his advice to people on how to live ur life... I guess I shouldn't have anymore complains... I should appreciate the chance to learn n work.

Busy March

A lot of things happening in March. Like I failed the SMMT test.. argh, suddenly hate Math so much. Like the never ending assignments and presentations. I wonder when is my free day. Dunno how many weekends have burned for assignmentssss.... meetingssss.... and meetingssss again. When you reach a point of time you dun ve motivation to do anything..... I understand your feeling, because this is what I feel now... so tiring =(...... I couldn't even find time to go back Msia.

I want to play.... I want to go Night Safari.... I want to go shopping....

夜晚

夜深人静的夜晚，
总是让人有特别多的感想。

三月，依然那么炎热，
届总而来的课业，
让我一时不习惯这种繁忙的生活，
我，还在质疑，
当老师的能力。

突然很想去旅行，
找寻生活的方向，
我，爱上了旅行的意义。
我想趁年轻，行走这个世界=）

Change of Heart

I just finish reading Jodi Picoult 'Change of Heart'. That is a very impressive and persuasive novel. I like the way Picoult questions at mankind. Let's keep aside the plot of the story, what I really want to write about this book is the way we look at human.

How do we define a bad guy? By their looks? Their professions? Or by your heart? To say it selfishlly, most of us judge by looks. How much do we really trust a person, let it be your closest friend? The society perspective often leads us to a same judgement. People with darker skin tend to be bad guy. People with slobby clothes are poor.

There's an incident in ICA when I need to take a photoshot at a studio there. The person before me is a handsome Ang Moh. Ok, I agree he is slightly more polite than me. But from the bottom of my heart, I dun think that is the reason why we are treated differently by the lady who helped us take photo. When is the Ang Moh turn, she smiled at him, service 100% perfect, helped him to adjust his position to get the best shot. But when is my turn, her attitude is like 180 degree change, I guess I didn't do anything to her before. Without any smile on her face, she just said: Dun move, flip your hair to the side.... Be it my own suspicious mind or watever, he is human, so am I? Then why are we treated differently?? Does he pay u more for the photo shot, or just the reason as simple as because of skin color?

I hate the mention of skin color. I hate even more the mention as second class citizen. There is all about races, religions. So, to be truthful, if there is a chance, do we get to choose where we are born? what are our skin color? Then, what the reason to make someone so special as the privileged citizens?

When someone mentioned statement like: Indian come to this country as beggar; Chinese esp gals as prostitute. These racist remarks as surprisingly, doesn not really affect me. I guess I have immuned to such things happen in my country, or is that another way saying I am abandoning my homeland? But the first thing that came into my mind, I feel ashamed of my country, I feel sorry for the person who said this, I feel sorry for him as one of the country leadermen, but show nothing except his brainless thinking. Resign doesn't mean to show your heroin acts. It doesn't really matter he left or not from this government, since most of them are of the same kind. 多一个，少一个，也没分别。He is just making fool of himself.

There is always unfairness in this world. As long as you are happy satisfied with your life now. I guess that is already a great life you are living. So, live it! =D

爱的季节。 生病的季节

最近，很多人生病，包括我。有人说，是因为炎热的天气。也听说，因为春风吹袭。
新年将至，在新加坡却感受不到新年气息。
新年，其实在人们的心里，到底变成怎样的一个节日？

久违的自由

The clock strikes 11.30pm, in ntu, this is just starting of my night activities and the hall compound is like having nite parties, but now, in the BB house, I am alone in the living room typing this blog. I missed the hostel day in NTU.

The title, 'long forgotten freedom', it has been 8 months since we move in together to BB. Tonight, I am typing this happily and feeling secure, because I knew no one is beside peeping at me doing wat. I surf net as I like, google-ing things like never before, type watever nonsense as in my blog. This blog no longer becomes a secret when move into BB. I guess every of my housemates knew when I am writing blog, just they keep quiet about that.

That's one of the cons part staying tgt, u seldom have own privacy. My working place is situated at the most significant place in the house. Right in front of living room where anyone passes by know wat am i doin.

Sometimes I just want to watch some stupid shows, when housemate just pop his head over to my desktop and asked: hey, wat r u watching. Suddenly, I dun have the mood to watch the show. (I remember once when I wanna watch' sex and the city' drama, if they knew i'm watching this, I will become a big gossip issue, and so I moved cs' laptop to a position they can't see). Since when, watching drama becomes such a hassle.

Sometimes I just wanna surf some travel blogs and air fare website when housemates passed by asking, hey, u wanna go travel? So free? and that so, I dun feel like surfing net anymore.

I was a drama addict. Not so now, i guess some reason may be due to my current situation at home. I can't really enjoy my drama when ppl peeing at wat am i watching. I dun like the feeling.

I guess I realise now the importance of privacy. I miss my time in NTU where I can surf net without irritation. I miss my little corner where I can do whatever I like. I miss the long lost freedom.

Skin Food. Body Shop. Fanatic

The great urge to buy skin care products started when one day, zuan zai realized her skin need nutrition. So.. we went to CS to explore. Body Shop emm, not to zuan's flavour. Then skin food. Ok, something strike our eyes, as zuan's face needs moisturizing more than others, the sales girl recommended the lettuce + cucumber power hydrating series. At last, we decided to buy the essence and emulsion, cost around RM120++... this time we are all way out... for zuan's 21yrs times.. she's gg to treat her skin a good feast. Butttt..... something caught my eye, haiz... gals are always that calculative and we cannot refrain from temptation. There's a board wrote " Spend RM200 and above get a diary".. and u know, the diary is so so cute, sweet plus the sales girl fantastic persuasive skill... at last, we add on a RM80+ eye lightening serum... to get the cute diary... and there goes our RM200..-_-"

When the money spent, u need to be happy. So, we happily decorate all our proudly skin care products into one basket. Here's the list, the neutrogena toner, the skin food lettuce + cucumber essence n emulsion, my existing Biotherm moisturizer and Body Shop Tea tree skin blemish care, all into the one precious basket.

A week after skin food retail therapy. One day, happily we went to IMM to shop. And and ther's a great sign showing 'THE BODY SHOP' sales. OMG, there's goes my Jan salary again... ok, when there's a good bargain, u know is too hard to just leave the site without NOTHING. So, we enter the dangerous area, out with $80 worth of Body Shop products. Strawberry, Mango, Sunkist, Grapefruit, Japaness Cherry Blossom, aqua lily and the ** Shimmering ** merry cranbury body lotion. Hee. ok, we dunno why we bought so many body lotion for wat also, ther's no much reason when a gal shop! But, except the shimmering body lotion, the rest are small convenience bottles... that's not much anyway.. ok, I know i am trying to make myself feel better, that my $$ is well spent.

So, now.. we gonna add on another basket, esp for BODY SHOP products. Grrr. My spending power seemed to increase alot... but my earning power is still the same... Argh... izit a sign means I have to source for something, to earn xtra?