My Sister's Keeper

OK, there's gone my blog layout. I lost all my current fav movie, books column etc etc. This will take some of my time to redesign my blog, beautify it. So, just bear with its empty shell for a period of time.

Is there a theory whereby if u sleep more, u get more tired? The last weekend was more like a sleeping week to me. I slept almost 1 hr plus on Fri nite, reluctantly wake up for a supper and bac to dreamland again. Sat nap around 2 hr plus.. which is a lot to me because I normally take only half n hr nap. BUT, the main point is, I still feel restless.. err.. izit a sign of aging? should not be that fast right?

Watched 'My Sister's Keeper' last Saturday. I have not read the novel before, without knowing any synopsis of the story, just based on Ann's good comment of the novel. These days, I have to trust Ann zai, although she might not read the lot of storybooks before age-13, but after coming to Singapore to study, I have to say, believe in her choice. The movie tells the story of a family struggling to cope with a child illness while presenting different points of views from the family members. A tear-jerking movie. The sadness in the movie goes so deep into your heart that you can feel the pain of Kate and her family.

The strength to overcome a sickness is not easy. Often, we would rather die than suffering mentally and physically. Especially for a young child, is cruel. What is still in your heart is the hope of recovering and the support from your loves.

I had been telling myself, even though some days work and stress from school is so great that discourages me a lot. I am so fortunate to be still able to work and teach the children. I am so fortunate that I can continue color my life. I am lucky I do not need to work under the sun. You can learn alot from movies, novels and surrounding. Even though we knew this deep in our heart to cherish our life and your loves one. But most of the times, we just overlook this importance.

放手

林峰 《愛·不·疚》

*收藏再眼眸，常徘徊左右
爱，猜到没有？
愉快玩笑后
能全然退后
你开心就够
这种感觉太真厚
讲一千句也不够
假使讲了你听到后，或会走
这种恋爱太罕有
不需真正拥有
成全 ，衷心祝福然后...
就放手
放手，放开所有
彼此更自由， 放手...
其实我决非爱得不够！
放手，豁出所有
还有这个好友，已经，已经足够...

*遥远是宇宙
静静在背后
去看守就够
这种感觉太深厚
讲一千句也不够
即使一刹有过冲动
挽你手
这种恋爱太罕有
不需真正拥有
成全，多舍不得仍然是放手
放手，放开所有，彼此更自由
放手，其实我决非爱得不够
放手，豁出所有，还有这个好友
已经，已经足够

*放手，我的牵挂，找不到尽头
放手，寄望你幸福什么都有
也许，爱很深厚
而我，早看得透
放手，只可拥有

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是时候，
放下过去，
珍惜现在，
展望未来。

也许，
我早就不应该那么执著，
坚持在错与对的争论，
其实都那么的不起眼。

Finally...

Finally, after so many round of entries of all sort of quizzes and lucky draws and watever, I won one. izit a sign of my voucher luck recovering? I do hope so. Yeap, my Shenzhen travel blog entry has been published on savvy traveller of NST which won me a staying trip in Parkroyal Penang=D... Anyway I haven got informed of my prize details yet.

Finally, after a dramatic life change of school term 3, the short 1 week break has arrived. I need some time to settle down all my work, reflecting of my teaching career for any improvement needed. All the feedbacks that i had received so far is either i'm too soft,too small to be precisely, my malaysia English slangs, no experience and my freaking pr skills. I realise i have problems interacting with peoples. argh...people management skill.. sucks alot...Surprisingly, my EQ level is high enough to sustain the students behaviours, which might explain why I'm still survived. I do understand now why they say teachers have great stress.. stress from teaching, stress from students, from your own peers and heads, from the parents down to the rigid conservative protection rules and education culture of sg. The belated teachers' day, I got some sweet gifts from students, but somehow I felt that I'm still not qualified as a teacher, a good teacher to say. When I looked back to my teaching life in New Kota, I had some regrets infacts, I don't know what are those but one thing i need to do now, is to put in all my efforts in this career, let it be my long life career or not, is not up to me to decide now. I just have to do my best and try hard to sharpen up my sucking pr skill. Buck up!

and and, a good news, we finally booked cheap air tics to Macao this dec. 5 of us except Nie jie, if she has time during the dec, then it will be a complete full family trip=). I sincerely hope and pray, this time, will be a successful and enjoyable safe trip (fingers crossed)pls pls.

Wasted....Argh

Gone.... $20 voucher just gone like that... wat the hell am i not noticing the deadline of the voucher!!!!!???? bloody hell....

Suppose to be a beautiful Saturday :).. Good morning gone with school CCA, I'm sooo "lucky" to be one of the 2 teachers kena Saturday CCA... -_-... Down with slight flu and the monthly physical disturbance... Argh.. Then got the shock news the voucher is overdue!!!! Wat wrong with this Sat morning...

Pls pls... just let me enjoy the rest of the weekend....

I may limit my blog , not open to public anymore... Privacy is one of my main issues concerned... I do not want to be caught by students using vulgar words here....

The First Month Pay

They say....
We have to celebrate for the first job first month pay =D
So, ther's a list of ppl i ve to treat, the See's family, the NTU gang, and aunty helen... ok, 1 by 1.
Some say, do not work for $$...but still, honestly speaking, money is one great encouragement for u to continue ur work...

The first month pay represents too my independence. my own ability to feed myself. that's why, i need a way to manage my finance now, the limit i can spend, the amount of $$ for rainy day, for saving, for insurance and for paying the loan=(.

I actually had a list of monthly intentionally buying list... let's see how many stuffs i have really bought by the end. My first n 2nd month pay is reserved for a lappie, seems unlikely now since I'm pretty satisfied with my 4-yrs desktop, let's reserve for other purpose.. hee

First Week of Teaching Life

I was told we couldn't blog much abt our teaching career thro blog, esp those sensitive issue of the sch.. so, i wouldn't write much abt my day & nite teaching life, maybe just some thoughts =)

The first week of teaching life was greeted by friendly colleagues and pretty exposed relief life. When i first entered the class, memories of teaching days in New Kota Primary sch flashed back. The students were not as well-behaved as i thought, I was hoping sec students should get better, not really... they just transformed to another form of discipline prob that u ve to tackle..

And after the 2 days course n dialogue session with the principal, i finally get bit steady with wat my career path, at least for this 1 yr should be. Whether teaching is my career path, i couldn't make a 100% promise right now.. wat can i say: I ll use this chance to hone my communication skill. Teaching is not just you and your students; in many times, it involves more than 2 parties: the sch, the parents, your "cute little" kids and your colleagues of course. School is a small world; u ll meet any kind of people here......

I always believe success of learning is not the result; but the process. So whenever the monday blues is back, I ll tell myself. Hey, ther's the chance to learn again!At least, it makes you feel better-_-

And i better get out of the house at 6.30am tmr!!! IT is rather awkward to join in the sardin fish's club with the students in the bus that spoils all my image ( u know, when u intend to get a bus, esp when the bus is just right in front you and you do not want to miss it, you will just run across the road and hop in rite? this is a NO-No for teachers, esp if u get in the bus sweating, then suddenly someone calling from the back: Hey, good morning teacher! At that moment, the whole bus knows who r u. Teachers need to have a clean, high, professional and godlike image... ( I wonder do I have any of these)

Hong Kong Trip 18-5-09 to 21-5-09

❤ Hong Kong Trip 18-5-09 to 21-5-09
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